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I either fortunately or unfortunately turn eighteen in about nine months. This means that at that point I'll be legally able to move out. But financially unable to, so I'm not sure if I could get legal help at that point or what.

I guess I'm asking on a whim. Probably because I don't feel that I'm important enough to consider and also because why would I turn to an art site for serious resources? 
I really have nowhere else to turn. What I have is a locked room and a laptop right now, and I'm too afraid to leave my room. My phone is downstairs. Don't know what I'm gonna do when I run out of the food I have up here. Just half a box of cookies and some rice that I was eating earlier. I've been really craving fried pickles all day. Guess I'm not getting anything but cookies and rice.

My biomom's going to eventually ask me to come out. Whether it's "politely," pretending as if nothing ever happened, or "politely" asking me to come out and explain why I'm so autistic and lazy and why I had a meltdown as if it's my fault - because it is my fault for reacting appropriately to her behavior and therefore making her "feel like a dog" because she "tries so hard." Or maybe she'll come back screaming and beating my door again, trying to tear it down so she can force me to do things I have clearly said "no" to. 

I don't know what to do. I've considered sneaking out for either my phone or some pills or maybe sneaking out completely, but I just have this paranoid fear that what if she didn't actually go to bed and is waiting outside my door to kill the both of us? 

If anyone has any resources, you might save my life, I dunno. But if you don't, that's cool to. We can only do what we can do - something my mother believes only applies to her to justify the way she treats me. Preferably resources that are trans-safe, non-binary-safe, and autistic-safe.
  • Mood: Llama
  • Listening to: a grasshopper. It's my new friend.
  • Reading: things in my tumblr inbox and crying over them.
  • Watching: TS3 LPs 'cause their families are all so perfect.
  • Eating: rice and cookies, eventually.
  • Drinking: dangit, I have nothing to drink.

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I don't mean to turn my page into a social justice rant, but people always assume I'm female, even here. Tell me, do you see anything on this page that proves I'm even biologically female? Any neutral pronoun will do. I even prefer "it" over "she or "he."



:iconthekaibutsuqueen: Hey, Nessa! Couldn't stand to delete your "icon" even if it's really nothing, a deleted account. So that's where Nessa used to be on the internet, guys. Was one of my favorite pages.

My peeps that I know in person:
:iconthekaibutsuqueen::iconheidirae1::iconcaseycreates::iconnemurimoya::iconcaseydraft001:

Ya'll should check out everyone here; they're all amazing! :heart:

Cosplays:
- Nyotalia Chibitalia from Hetalia
- Fionna from Adventure Time
- Canada from Hetalia
- Castiel from Supernatural
- human Ariel from The Little Mermaid
- Up next: Shhh! It's a surprise! That some of you know about anyway...
- Coming soon: Flower Nurse from .flow & Pinkie Pie from MLP:FiM

And I claim the title of the Toriningen Ruler! :icontoriningenplz:

Check it out, lobsters, Monrussia!
:iconbraginskiplz:
:iconmonroeplz:

Oh, hey! I just wanted to say here that I usually don't respond to thank yous. It's not that I don't appreciate them or anything. I'm just really awkward and uncomfortable saying the same you're welcome all over the page. I worry that it doesn't sound sincere because I'm silly and worry about stuff like that.
But let me assure you that if you're thankful for the favourite or the watch, you're very, very welcome, and you certainly deserve it. I wouldn't favourite or watch if I didn't think your work was awesome!
But if you want to express your thanks, go ahead! I do read them all, and it's really nice of you to take the time out of your day to find my page to say it!
Thanks, guys!

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DreamPalette Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the fave!! 
I really appreciate it!!
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Thank you for the fav! C:
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Thanks for the +fav :happybounce: 
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HEYYY Thank you every much for the fav!!
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Samii-Doll Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:
Here, have a llama in return :meow:
Also feel free to check out my facebook page & give it a like if you should feel so inclined
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Thanks for the favourites. :)
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Thanks for the +watch! <3
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thank you for the fave xD
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Thank you for the fav on The Music Lives :)
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hello~
I'm trying to get points together to host a super awesome contest
I know I shouldn't be begging for points, but every little bit counts
sorry for wasting ur time, if you don't care go ahead and hide my comment
have a nice day~
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Thank you for faving my drawing<3
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Thanks so much for faving our Beauty and The Beast Cosplay :squee:

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I'm so stupid, I made a mistake with the link - so very sorry!!! www.facebook.com/colibrisoulco…
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Thank you very much for watching :meow:
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